So last night was a hard night. Jordan didn't go to church which like never happens that boy is like ALWAYS there. Soo it was pretty hard for me. And then he didn't get home i guess till like 10:30 and my text was being retarded soo i didn't get to talk to him. I was pretty upset. I was in my room like crying and my sister came in and was talking to me. She told me that i fell too quick. When i was garrett, i don't think she ever fully believed that i loved him. And with jordan, she's recognizing it before i even tell her. It's kind of amazing. But anyway, last night i cried alott. I just miss him soo much. I just want him to poof himself into my arms. and then just like not go. I've grown to hate goodbyes. They are horrible and i hate them. Sometime i think i'd be better by myself. Maybe i wouldn't hurt so much. But then i realize that this boy makes me happier then i've been in a long time. I just wish there was some way to see him more. I wonder if we will ever have a "normal" relationship. He's one grade higher then me, so he will be graduating before me and going to college before me. It makes me really sadd. And lately when i talk to him on the phone that makes me sad too. Like when he says something he says alott i can just picture him sitting there saying it lol.
well.
I need to go finish my shirt for jordans game tomorrow.
Hopefully he will call soon...
About Me
- Marie
- I am a junior at Del City High School. I am involved with alot of school clubs but the one that means the most is ROTC. I am the PAO and have worked very hard to achieve this position. I am a volunteer for the American Red Cross and am also the Youth Rep for the Board of Directors. I go to Beverly Hills Baptist Church. I have been in a relationship with the same guy for two and a half years now.
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